journal entry

Monday, January 30, 2006 

I don’t want to wait in hope of what might be
but to live in light of what will be.

Wednesday, February 1, 2005

I stumbled across a familiar but still remarkably gripping quote as I was reading my assignment this evening:

“Some men see things as they are and ask ‘Why?’ Others see things as they could be and ask, ‘Why not?'” ~Robert Kennedy

To repeat something our teacher ( Connie Bissen ) communicated in class earlier today: Ask God to give you dreams.

Tuesday, February 7, 2005
The Church by Derek Webb
i have come with one purpose
to capture for myself a bride
by my life she is lovely
by my death she’s justified
i have always been her husband
though many lovers she has known
so with water i will wash her
and by my word alone
so when you hear the sound of the water
you will know you’re not alone
’cause i haven’t come for only you
but for my people to pursue
you cannot care for me with no regard for her
if you love me you will love the church
i have long pursued her
as a harlot and a whore
but she will feast upon me
she will drink and thirst no more
so when you taste my flesh and my blood
you will know you’re not alone
there is none that can replace her
though there are many who will try
and though some may be her bridesmaids
they can never be my bride

I’ve had these lyrics in my head all afternoon… in class, we’ve been talking about what the church is, what it is meant to be… of course, I am just eating it up. I can hardly wait to write my reflection paper! Anyways, today I felt like… like my heart was… tender. Thinking about the church made me want to cry ( a desire that I gave into several times) and during chapel these lyrics came to mind. I was so… moved… that I ended up just sitting there; unable to sing, unable to stand. I could hear voices around me… the body…

and all I could think of was the line, “if you love me you will love the church.”


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